For sometime now I have felt to share a story about the "real me". I learned today at church when you have impressions, you should follow through with them (as long as they are good :-)
In seventh grade I weighed a 175lb and wore my mom's fat clothes. Talk about depressing. When I turned 14 something clicked and I decided to start eating healthier and workout. I began to grow interest in health and wellness. I did my mom's Jane Fonda videos and later became a Billy Blanks fan. Over the past 15 years I have battled my weight issues like a roller coaster. I'm an emotional eater and I use to think that's ok, I'm a woman...it's what we do. I would gain weight and lose weight over and over. This past year I have had a lot of first for me. I lost some loved ones, spent nights in hospital, yearned for another baby, and working on eating better. Through all of this I realized I would ease my emotions, whatever they may be with comfort food and retail therapy occasionally. This would bring me up for a half hour maybe and then I would start beating myself up for making poor choices. Doesn't that sound like a vicious cycle (nod your head yes)?
We all have to hit that brick wall to realize where we are and where we want to go. I've had slips and falls, but I learned along time ago it's what we do when we get back up. I'm a big believer in keeping a journal about your life, food, workouts, and emotions. For me it is therapeutic to get it out there on the line (reason why I am telling you my life story). It helps you see how you can get over that hump. My family and my religion are huge saving grace as I overcome my weaknesses. A quote I love "The one thing you need to worry about is striving to be the best you can be. And how do you do that? You keep your eye on the goals that matter most in life, and you move towards them STEP BY STEP." - Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin
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